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it's a test to find that silver lining [OPEN]
Who: Fulcrum & Krok [closed]; there is an [OPEN] prompt available too!
Where: Fulcrum & Krok at Krok's room. Otherwise, marketplace or boardwalk a-go-go.
When: The weekend.
Summary: Fulcrum is concerned about his worrywort of a commanding officer and checks up on him [closed] while on the flipside he's also shopping for some specific equipment [OPEN].
Warnings: Big dumb robots with feelings
[CLOSED TO KROK]
Ever since the medical exams from Ratchet, Fulcrum has definitely made note of one thing: the lack of his commanding officer being around and mother henning the hell out of his crew.
It's not for lack of caring. Primus, if there's one thing Fulcrum knows, it is most definitely that Krok cares! If anything, it has to do with him caring. Caring so damned much and worrying and now it's somehow confined him to his room. Fortunately, Fulcrum has no problem taking it upon himself to worry right back at him.
So, he stands in front of his captain's door and gives it a knock.
"It's me. Can I come in?"
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[OPEN]
"Okay, so."
Fulcrum squints down at his paper list. Paper is such a weird concept that just kind of seems to be a big waste of resources, but it's a common thing to use here apparently. Bizarre to him, really. A lot of the habits these organics have is both endearing and frustrating. No, he doesn't think too highly of most of them, but he doesn't entirely dislike them either.
But this paper thing's silly.
"Yeah, I gotta make a data pad," the K-Con mutters to himself.
For now, he's shopping around for some fairly specific material on his list. Mostly, he's looking for equipment, or objects he can make into equipment. Things he can repurpose in some way.
At the very least, he's certainly not unapproachable!
Where: Fulcrum & Krok at Krok's room. Otherwise, marketplace or boardwalk a-go-go.
When: The weekend.
Summary: Fulcrum is concerned about his worrywort of a commanding officer and checks up on him [closed] while on the flipside he's also shopping for some specific equipment [OPEN].
Warnings: Big dumb robots with feelings
[CLOSED TO KROK]
Ever since the medical exams from Ratchet, Fulcrum has definitely made note of one thing: the lack of his commanding officer being around and mother henning the hell out of his crew.
It's not for lack of caring. Primus, if there's one thing Fulcrum knows, it is most definitely that Krok cares! If anything, it has to do with him caring. Caring so damned much and worrying and now it's somehow confined him to his room. Fortunately, Fulcrum has no problem taking it upon himself to worry right back at him.
So, he stands in front of his captain's door and gives it a knock.
"It's me. Can I come in?"
-=-=-
[OPEN]
"Okay, so."
Fulcrum squints down at his paper list. Paper is such a weird concept that just kind of seems to be a big waste of resources, but it's a common thing to use here apparently. Bizarre to him, really. A lot of the habits these organics have is both endearing and frustrating. No, he doesn't think too highly of most of them, but he doesn't entirely dislike them either.
But this paper thing's silly.
"Yeah, I gotta make a data pad," the K-Con mutters to himself.
For now, he's shopping around for some fairly specific material on his list. Mostly, he's looking for equipment, or objects he can make into equipment. Things he can repurpose in some way.
At the very least, he's certainly not unapproachable!
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It's too many things all at once, and all of it accumulated since Clemency, and all coming out in frame-racking sobs.
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Fulcrum doesn't even sound annoyed, more just affectionate and somewhat admiring Krok's nature in general. He doesn't want his commanding officer to be as upset as he is, but he's never had someone care as much about his crew as Krok does. It's Krok's best quality.
It's also his worst.
Gently, he squeezes his arms around Krok, then runs his fingers down his back lightly. It's not the kind of comfort he's personally ever received, but it's something he'd like to have had in the past. So, he hopes it's the right thing to do for Krok.
"Everything's okay. I'm sorry, I think maybe I don't do, uh, 'demanding' very well. But you've been cooped up too long in here by yourself."
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"I can't," he says piteously, shuddering. "I can't lose another one of you."
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Fulcrum almost apologies, but he chokes on it. He knows Krok won't want to hear it, but he still blames himself for what happened to Flywheels.
"You won't," he says instead. "We're probably the safest here than we've ever been, right? No DJD, no scrambling for supplies. You won't lose us, Krok. Hell, I think you're kind of stuck with all of us."
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"If… if I'd just told everyone to run," he rasps. "If I hadn't suggested fighting…" He can't say the words, but they hang in the air, heavy, accusing. Flywheels would still be alive.
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"And if I hadn't lied," Fulcrum says flatly. "I know-- I know, you said to not mention it again, but there were factors involved. And we... we can't take it back. We can only do better in the future."
They can't make Flywheels alive again. They can only make sure that the rest of them don't die somehow.
"Nobody blames you. We didn't have a whole lot of options, and we did what we could for what little we had. If we ran, they would have chased us. You know that." Fulcrum settles his hand on the back of Krok's head. "Krok, the only person blaming you is you."
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"Because it's my fault," Krok finally says, anguished. His arms tighten around Fulcrum and he digs his fingers in, briefly, a spasm that passes as quickly as it came. He's a strategist. He should have been able to find a better way.
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And oh, how he'd been afraid of that.
"I'm sorry," he sighs, voice shaking. "I'm sorry, Fulcrum." For the exam, for putting all this on him.
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The K-Con wriggles a moment so he can crouch down, closer to how Krok is sitting. He keeps his arms around his captain, as tight as he can make it. "I forgive you. Not I ever blamed you, but I do forgive you. You had to make a choice for us, and it was a smart one."
The hand continues to lightly brush down Krok's back. "Thank you for looking out for us. And hell, if that's what you do when you're afraid, you still make smarter choices than I do. All I do is run away." He cracks a smile. It's meant to be a joke, but it's a bit self-deprecating.
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I forgive you.
He slides off the sofa to his knees on the floor, still hanging onto Fulcrum, but it's relief dragging him down, and though his sigh is thin and uneven, it's exhaustion, not anguish. He barely even hears Fulcrum cracking a joke at his own expense; he's too busy saying thank you.
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He smiles patiently and rubs his cheek lightly against the top of Krok's helm.
"It's okay."
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Slowly, reluctantly, he loosens his hold and sits back. His hands linger on Fulcrum's arms, though.
He starts to speak, to apologise for putting all this on his friend, but the words won't come. So he just looks at the floor, shame creeping across his face.
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"Krok, it's okay. No one can be strong forever, and you're allowed to rely on your crew. On your friends. Someone's gotta look out for you when you forget to look after yourself, anyway." Fulcrum gently bumps his forehead with Krok's. "Okay?"
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And Fulcrum's trying so hard to help him up. In spite of himself, Krok leans into Fulcrum, taking that impossibly gentle headbutt for the friendly gesture he knows it is.
"…Okay," he says after a few seconds, and nods slightly. "Okay."
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"Okay," he replies in confirmation. "I know I can trust and rely on all of you, but you can do the same with me, Krok. I'm not going anywhere, and you can always count on me."
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As soon as Krok sits back down onto the sofa, Fulcrum isn't shy about sitting next to him. Krok isn't about to get rid of him anytime soon.
"Honestly, I haven't had a commanding officer I've liked as much as you. Then again, most of the others kind of don't give a damn about their crew half as much as you. You just, um. You need to remember your own limits, that's all. Because you do have them."
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"I know," he says. He doesn't add that he's not sure he can afford to have those limits any more – or at least not right now, not until things are settled and he knows problems like Chromedome are handled.
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"Just remember that we're here for you. I know you can't really express your limits around Misfire and Spinister easily." Not to pull a Flywheels, but bless their sparks; Misfire and Spinister have their own strengths and limits, and their strengths aren't always going to be offering a shoulder to someone. Fulcrum gets that.
"So. Talk to me, if you have to. I don't mind. You guys mean a lot to me and I know I'm, uh. Not that strong, so. I'd like to do what I can."
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But Fulcrum offers, freely. Krok isn't simply putting this on him unsolicited. And he needs a shoulder to lean on.
"…All right," he says finally, hesitantly.
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There isn't much that he can do here, but he can do this.
"Good. Thank you." Fulcrum gives a little sigh. That makes him feel quite a bit better, actually.
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Still. Warmth that has everything to do with comfort and gratitude, and nothing with internal temperature, creeps through him slowly, and Krok can't quite help the slow smile dimming his optics.