forcowardice: (dicks. dicks everywhere.)
Fulcrum ([personal profile] forcowardice) wrote in [community profile] rekindleme2014-06-29 12:08 pm
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it's a test to find that silver lining [OPEN]

Who: Fulcrum & Krok [closed]; there is an [OPEN] prompt available too!
Where: Fulcrum & Krok at Krok's room. Otherwise, marketplace or boardwalk a-go-go.
When: The weekend.
Summary: Fulcrum is concerned about his worrywort of a commanding officer and checks up on him [closed] while on the flipside he's also shopping for some specific equipment [OPEN].
Warnings: Big dumb robots with feelings


[CLOSED TO KROK]

Ever since the medical exams from Ratchet, Fulcrum has definitely made note of one thing: the lack of his commanding officer being around and mother henning the hell out of his crew.

It's not for lack of caring. Primus, if there's one thing Fulcrum knows, it is most definitely that Krok cares! If anything, it has to do with him caring. Caring so damned much and worrying and now it's somehow confined him to his room. Fortunately, Fulcrum has no problem taking it upon himself to worry right back at him.

So, he stands in front of his captain's door and gives it a knock.

"It's me. Can I come in?"

-=-=-

[OPEN]

"Okay, so."

Fulcrum squints down at his paper list. Paper is such a weird concept that just kind of seems to be a big waste of resources, but it's a common thing to use here apparently. Bizarre to him, really. A lot of the habits these organics have is both endearing and frustrating. No, he doesn't think too highly of most of them, but he doesn't entirely dislike them either.

But this paper thing's silly.

"Yeah, I gotta make a data pad," the K-Con mutters to himself.

For now, he's shopping around for some fairly specific material on his list. Mostly, he's looking for equipment, or objects he can make into equipment. Things he can repurpose in some way.

At the very least, he's certainly not unapproachable!
dadcepticon: (He's getting tired…)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
"I thought – I thought–" Krok stutters into his hands, dignity forgotten. "When you asked me to come out, I thought–" He can't even make himself say it, and just lets Fulcrum hold him.

It's too many things all at once, and all of it accumulated since Clemency, and all coming out in frame-racking sobs.
dadcepticon: (I think we're the ones who miscounted.)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
Krok would like to stop. He shouldn't be unburdening himself on Fulcrum of all people, who has enough going on in his own life to last another millennium at least. But he couldn't really say anything to Ratchet at the time and Fulcrum… Fulcrum is here and understands. So without even thinking about it, Krok wraps his arms around Fulcrum's waist and hides his face in the lanky 'Con's midsection and just holds onto him.

"I can't," he says piteously, shuddering. "I can't lose another one of you."
dadcepticon: (He's getting tired…)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
The sound Krok makes is a laugh and a sob all in one, but the spasms racking him are slowly, slowly subsiding, and Fulcrum's hand soothing down his back is beginning to ease away some of the tension. Still, he doesn't budge.

"If… if I'd just told everyone to run," he rasps. "If I hadn't suggested fighting…" He can't say the words, but they hang in the air, heavy, accusing. Flywheels would still be alive.
dadcepticon: ([no no no no no])

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 05:04 am (UTC)(link)
Someone has to, Krok thinks. Someone has to blame him; the others won't. Fulcrum won't. And the others aren't to blame.

"Because it's my fault," Krok finally says, anguished. His arms tighten around Fulcrum and he digs his fingers in, briefly, a spasm that passes as quickly as it came. He's a strategist. He should have been able to find a better way.
dadcepticon: (Reduced to decimals and integers…)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
"I was afraid." The words start tumbling over one another in spite of Fulcrum's reassurances. Even though some part of Krok knows Fulcrum's right – but Fulcrum is listening, and Krok's spark aches to shed some of the weight. "I was afraid," he confesses, "when I realised I was having trouble with fuel… and then you all arrived… I was afraid." He bows his head. "I couldn't afford to say no when Ratchet made his offer. Even if it meant all of you hated me."

And oh, how he'd been afraid of that.

"I'm sorry," he sighs, voice shaking. "I'm sorry, Fulcrum." For the exam, for putting all this on him.
dadcepticon: (Everyone's going to be okay!)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
Three little words. Barely anything in the grand scheme. Three tiny words that are exactly what Krok needs to hear right now.

I forgive you.

He slides off the sofa to his knees on the floor, still hanging onto Fulcrum, but it's relief dragging him down, and though his sigh is thin and uneven, it's exhaustion, not anguish. He barely even hears Fulcrum cracking a joke at his own expense; he's too busy saying thank you.
dadcepticon: (Reduced to decimals and integers…)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-04 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Krok sits that way, trying to find his centre again, for a few minutes. Part of him doesn't want to budge, needing the support Fulcrum offers so freely, but he's only too aware that he's probably heavy on the lanky 'Con and can't lean into him too much longer.

Slowly, reluctantly, he loosens his hold and sits back. His hands linger on Fulcrum's arms, though.

He starts to speak, to apologise for putting all this on his friend, but the words won't come. So he just looks at the floor, shame creeping across his face.
dadcepticon: (Wait a second…)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-05 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
Krok doesn't fight Fulcrum's hand and he can't quite hide his miserable expression. They depend on him; he's not strictly qualified, but they depend on him to be in charge, to have a plan, to take care of them. And he's trying.

And Fulcrum's trying so hard to help him up. In spite of himself, Krok leans into Fulcrum, taking that impossibly gentle headbutt for the friendly gesture he knows it is.

"…Okay," he says after a few seconds, and nods slightly. "Okay."
dadcepticon: (We can handle this.)

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-05 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"Some captain I am, huh?" Krok murmurs, but it's with a faint sort of smile and none of the self-recrimination it would have had only a few minutes ago. He pushes Fulcrum to his feet first, then hauls himself off the floor and back onto the sofa with a grunt. He feels… drained, but at the same time, better.
dadcepticon: ([no Fulcrum we didn't win])

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-05 07:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Krok has limits, yes. Painfully stretched and run thin, because he's an historian, a strategist, not a captain, and Fulcrum's getting a good look at all the ragged edges today. Still, he warms under the unexpected praise and looks away awkwardly, because he's not above feeling flattered when given acknowledgement.

"I know," he says. He doesn't add that he's not sure he can afford to have those limits any more – or at least not right now, not until things are settled and he knows problems like Chromedome are handled.
dadcepticon: ([just hold on])

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-07 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
It's hard for Krok to accept Fulcrum's offer. He's supposed to take care of Fulcrum, not the other way around. But it's equally hard to refuse, because he's tired and lonely. Normally, Crankcase would let him babble, and just grunt, but it was enough just for Krok to have the ear of someone willing, someone who understood. It isn't as though Fulcrum offering is all that different, he tells himself. But, he counters, Fulcrum is one of his foundlings.

But Fulcrum offers, freely. Krok isn't simply putting this on him unsolicited. And he needs a shoulder to lean on.

"…All right," he says finally, hesitantly.
dadcepticon: ("The fighting's stopped. Come home.")

[personal profile] dadcepticon 2014-07-07 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You're… welcome?" Krok mumbles, not quite sure why Fulcrum's thanking him. The lanky 'Con is the one doing Krok all the favours here.

Still. Warmth that has everything to do with comfort and gratitude, and nothing with internal temperature, creeps through him slowly, and Krok can't quite help the slow smile dimming his optics.