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rekindleme2015-01-05 12:10 pm
noparachute) wrote in rekindleme2015-01-05 12:10 pm
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Who: Steve Rogers and you
Where: The park
When: January 2
Summary: Steve does sad drawings and mopes because Bucky is back to his WS self. Then he feels bad for feeling upset.
Warnings: Sad Steve face
It has been 3 days since Bucky came back.
As soon as the de-aging stopped, he disappeared, probably went off to hide and isolate himself from Steve. He wasn't surprised and he still looked for him, but he mostly just left him alone this time. He had his own feelings, thoughts about the whole situation that he's been trying to keep to himself. He was happy to see his old friend- the one that wasn't brainwashed by HYDRA yet, but he knew that this was coming. He thought he could've prepared for it, but everything still just hurt.
But none of this was Bucky's fault, he could never blame him. He still loved him as a friend, cared about what was going on with him. But Steve couldn't deny that he really missed what he used to be. It wasn't fair to him though and he was trying, trying too hard judging by his attempts to be more personal lately. But it felt forced, like he just wanted to make Steve happy and he didn't want that.
So, Steve was just sitting by himself at the park bench, his sketchbook out and filled with drawings of Bucky in his World War II outfit and some in his Winter Soldier uniform. Most of the drawings were just of his head though, his expressions. It was easy to see that they looked so different even though it was technically the same face.
Right now, he was using the watercolor pencils Bucky gave him during Christmas, working on a drawing of Bucky staring at the fishes in the aquarium. Steve still looked a little sad and he could probably use some company, even though he was working on his sketchbook.
Where: The park
When: January 2
Summary: Steve does sad drawings and mopes because Bucky is back to his WS self. Then he feels bad for feeling upset.
Warnings: Sad Steve face
It has been 3 days since Bucky came back.
As soon as the de-aging stopped, he disappeared, probably went off to hide and isolate himself from Steve. He wasn't surprised and he still looked for him, but he mostly just left him alone this time. He had his own feelings, thoughts about the whole situation that he's been trying to keep to himself. He was happy to see his old friend- the one that wasn't brainwashed by HYDRA yet, but he knew that this was coming. He thought he could've prepared for it, but everything still just hurt.
But none of this was Bucky's fault, he could never blame him. He still loved him as a friend, cared about what was going on with him. But Steve couldn't deny that he really missed what he used to be. It wasn't fair to him though and he was trying, trying too hard judging by his attempts to be more personal lately. But it felt forced, like he just wanted to make Steve happy and he didn't want that.
So, Steve was just sitting by himself at the park bench, his sketchbook out and filled with drawings of Bucky in his World War II outfit and some in his Winter Soldier uniform. Most of the drawings were just of his head though, his expressions. It was easy to see that they looked so different even though it was technically the same face.
Right now, he was using the watercolor pencils Bucky gave him during Christmas, working on a drawing of Bucky staring at the fishes in the aquarium. Steve still looked a little sad and he could probably use some company, even though he was working on his sketchbook.
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That's the first time she's heard that. And it sounded important. "Whatever it is, doesn't sound too good. Is that what made him..."
She tries to pick her words carefully. None of them seem to fit.
"Is that what changed him?"
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"...Yeah." That was the short story, one word answer to everything really. Yes, it was Zola's fault, Pierce's as well. Everyone involved with that organization. Steve wasn't innocent in it either, since he was the one that failed to save Bucky from falling off that train. If he was faster, he would've saved him and Bucky might've led a normal life.
Instead, he was forcibly changed and he even killed Howard Stark, a person that was a friend and ally back in the war. Steve just should've destroyed HYDRA fully before he went down with the plane as well.
"They captured him." Steve didn't say anything else though, figuring that said enough about what happened.
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"I'm sorry." She hopes that's enough to convey the message, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"He's healing, though. Guess all the time with you's done something."
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"Not just me. His friends here- you, Bucky's healing because of that too." He needed friends outside of Bucky as well and talking to Chromia like this helped him a lot.